Last evening Jacksonville, Florida opened its beaches. Couples and families piled into jeeps with surf boards and bikes and raced out of my neighborhood (just 5 miles from the beach) at 4:30. Crowds jostled toward the surf at 5 PM on the dot as if they had just escaped from prison. There was a collective sigh of relief, not always hidden by a face mask, but the exuberance and joy was evident everywhere. It isn’t even warm enough to surf or jump in the waves but people wanted a cleansing for themselves not just door knobs. Its been a month of fear, frustration, lack of schooling and loss of income and as children played in the sand, couples walked hand in hand, surfers tried to keep a distance, the sense of community said “Enough!” Many think, “If I get Covid so be it. I will take the risk that there may not be a ventilator for me.” The farther along we are with the management (there is no treatment yet) we realize ventilators are often not the answer. My responsible comment is to say, “Please stay home until its safe as to not overwhelm the system”.
The stay at home orders and shutting down of all elective surgeries and medical care resulted in hospitals now half full. Everyone is waiting for the surge, terrified of what happened in population- dense New York. It will not happen everywhere, but an outbreak in South Dakota shutting down a meat plant, demonstrates how infectious this disease is and insidious. A football player who never left the house gets infected but an ICU nurse with inadequate PPE does not. It seems so random. We do however, need to have a sense of caution. We also need to stop hiding in fear. In 5 days we will know if the Jacksonville experiment was safe or a disaster.
So how will we proceed ? I like to take a page from our patients. They are some of the most vulnerable yet they behave as if there is no risk. After all, the real threat is a cancer they are managing and treating. They do not have the energy to battle everything or the luxury of staying home. They show up everyday and teach us how to handle a crisis.
We all have friends and family with cancer who for years have walked boldly out the door to face the unknown, maybe with a scarf on the head, a badge of courage over the porta cath, a bag of knitting or work laptop for time in the chemo chair. They are not afraid. They come for toxic, scary, debilitating therapy and say, “Bring it on!” Cancer is also an unseen demon that took up residence in them without warning. No Clorox or Lysol can make them immune. They cannot wash their hands of it. If they hunker down at home in fear and sadness, they miss their chance for improvement or cure. And so they show up again and again. Our patients teach us about self care and recovery. Although some of us have not been exposed to this virus, they are a reminder that we have been exposed to courageousness, fearlessness, determination, even fierceness. These are contagious too.
These brave individuals give us hope. They teach us that the real cleansing we all need is refreshing our minds. This fear will not be sprayed or wiped away. Cleansing our thoughts of worry and fear is therapeutic. Open the doors and windows and let the fresh air circulate to reduce the virus and “wash” the air. Shut off the TV which is stealing our comfort and peace- the “news” is a threat we have allowed into our homes and is like a virus itself. Open your environment to a new way of thinking. Read a good book, dance to music, take a course on line, write a journal, tend a garden, do yoga, spend time in the sun which seems to kill this virus (thank goodness). Recovery on every level from this pandemic will take much more than testing and tracing. It will be personal for each of us. It will require us to face the unknown just as my patients do everyday. Trust that you will leave your home and venture forth with deliberate bravery.
Cleansing your spirit is a first step. Welcome in the joy of freedom with each breath and prepare yourself to go out and face a bright future. It will require a mask, social distancing, honoring our immunocompromised and elders to keep them safe, washing our hands and not touching our faces, but you’ve got this down by now. Cleansing is a way of life. You are well prepared to take back our world!
